A few weeks later, I started feeling really tired again, and a blood draw and CT- scan revealed that my CA-125 was on the rise (which is bad), and that I had new tumor growth.The doctor explained that, “if the cancer is back this soon after finishing chemotherapy, you are either platinum resistant, and your condition would be considered terminal OR, the tumors are benign and you are fine. When I told my friends about his reaction, most said “he’s a jerk”, or “you’re better off knowing now that he’s not supportive”, but I don’t necessarily agree with that.After major surgery and chemotherapy, does my body even work the same?
I was pretty surprised when I quickly met a very good looking, smart, interesting guy who also had a dog.We seemed to enjoy each other’s company and started dating very casually.We’ll know more when we do your surgery in six weeks”. I misled him by seriously downplaying my cancer experience.When on a walk with our dogs, I casually mentioned that I needed more surgery because a scan revealed some new tumors. Everyone has their own relationship with cancer, and I don’t fault someone for not wanting to embark on a new relationship with someone who has or had cancer.After he saw pictures of me with longer hair, he asked why I decided to cut it. I’m super lucky, but ready to get on with my life”, which I most likely followed up with a few tired clichés about all the awesome things I learned on my journey, something sarcastic, and a big smile.
I took a deep breath and said something along the lines of, “yeah, I was diagnosed with ovarian cancer last year, but I am ALL GOOD now. He commended me on my great attitude and that was that.